tired...

I'm tired of missing you...
tired of thinking of you...
tired of closing my eyes, trying to remember how cute your smile is...
tired of laying on my bed, looking at the white wall in front of me and trying to fill it with a wide collection of your eyes...
tired of including you in all my latest writings...
tired of sitting for hours doing nothing but saying your name...
tired of seeing your pictures over and over, hoping to find one of them, ugly enough to make me change my mind and hate you, but alas... your beauty shines from inside, and it's really blinding the heart of the beholder...
Sweety...
I'm tired...
I'm really tired...
I'm not young anymore, I don't have the breath for it...
I'm tired, really tired...